Jeff and I are preparing for some massive changes this year - heck, this month. In two weeks today, we'll be married. It seems so strange, yet not so strange at the same time. I can't really describe it. I think that part of it is that our lives have been so busy over the past few months - or even year - that I haven't really had a chance to sit down and realise all that is happening. I'm SO excited to be going abroad again. I am itching to get out of Canada, and to explore other cultures and countries. I'm excited to be working with kids again, in a meaningful way.
I have yet to be able to wrap my head completely around our marriage. I don't imagine that much will change. I've known that I wanted to marry Jeff for a couple of years now - I just didn't feel ready for marriage before. Now - I'm ready. I can't explain why, or what changed. I guess we both decided that we were sick of living our lives separately (with me travelling and leaving Jeff behind!) and that we were ready to make decisions in our lives based on each other. This is not to say that I am no longer myself, or that I am losing my independence. It's more that I'm, I don't know, making a conscious decision to share my life with someone else. Those seem like big words, important ones, albet cheesy! But oddly enough I think I'm ready for them.
So, change, but good change. I truly believe that once you get too comfortable you stop moving. It's important to move forward and to challenge your comfort zone - it helps you to grow and develop as a person.
-Jen
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